/ P.Y.T

pretty young thing

posted on Tuesday, 29 January 2008

i am veriveri bored and tired of this life .
duh im not going to kill myself , but still , im just tired to living . im just too tired to do anything except one . wait , TWO . :
to chat with f5 with him behaving nicely to me .
AND to hang out with my 3 best friends . namely alyaa , aisyah and nabilah .
and the rest ? just some things that are in one corner of my aching brain . THAT'S how bad it is . i dont even WANT to play floorball . okaye fine , maybe last time i said that floorball always cheers me up . YES , i DID say that im always open to floorball . but that was LAST TIME . now im tired . im sad . of living . do.you.get.me.????
good if you do . cos it'll make my post easier to be explained . F5 totally HATES me . yeah , im beginning to accept the truth . ive been making a fool of myself , saying that there is still hope and lie in his words . but truth is , i dont really know . i dont know why im in this world . why i was born . imagine if Nabi Adam a.s didnt eat the fruit that was forbidden to be eaten . if he didnt , if it wasnt for syaitan , then i would not be born . none of us will . because we dont have to . but sadly , all that is history . those stories are in books published all over the world with different versions to tell .
anyway , back to the subject . even my friends lie to me . even they backstab me . i know ive been a fucking bitch and i know ive been stabbed in the back , but the main thing is : we're living in a lie . people around us lie . the trouble is , sometimes , you just dont know when they're lying . even MY parents never tell me and my siblings our blood type . what is the reason behind it ? ive been thinking about this since i was primary 4 . what is the reason ?
but what im telling you next , is definitely not a lie . because i do love F5 . and its really hard to forget about him . i cant get rid of the feeling whenever he's near me . obviously , some of you readers dont know about love . of course you dont , i read about it on one blog !
thus , i am living in a lie . we all are . and if you disagree , good luck to you in finding the truth . because im too tired to do so .
btw : im not old . im just 11+ years old . when i say "tired" , it means that i want to sleep and never wake up . die peacefully .
but truth is : i dont want to die . see , i told you , i lied . and i didnt know it until now . how pathetic .

once more , good luck to you in searching the truth behind our lives .

Where Did You Come From Lady

posted on Tuesday, 29 January 2008

I Want To Love You

Anywhere You Wanna Go

You Need Some Lovin'

Repeat After Me